Negative!!!!!

People on this course are starting to worry and get VERY negative. Job prospects, pretty slim considering we are not prepared and this fucking credit crunch!!!

Total not happy. Im tryin my best to stay on top of things but its hard when i have zero ann i MEAN ZERO motivation.

D&AD Awards have a lame choice of briefs...black holes?? why God why...

I am goin to look for my own client. Possibly a magazine company who need or would like some 3d artwork or modelling done.

Im still working on my personal research project but progress is slow and irritating but i guess its useful...

I feel like my parents are wasting money (£3000+) a year for a 1 or 2 or cancelled lectures. Im embaressed...

I dont believe i have learnt ANYTHING on this course...sadly...but luckily, i am one of FEW who makes an effort to make further progress in my own time.

Lookig at some 2nd years blogs, MY GOD! some peoples work are better than ours! this is embaressing and humiliating. We are final years and our work sucks, no offense. Even though i consider myself to be the best modeller on our little course, but its not good enough to be in the games industry. I will have to take ANOTHER course and spend MORE money which i REALLY hope its WORTH IT!

Companies dont give a shit about students having a BA or BsC! they care about experience, we have no experience. therefore we're fucked...

My current marks are average...low class honors or something like that...does that mean im shit? probably. and i probably do suck at writing essays and generally writing but hey...everyone have their weak sides.

Im hoping to me better than 2nd class low honors. I wanna be one of the BEST but then again, i dont give a shit, just wanna get this course over and done with, drag my arse on a specialised course and earn some friggin money other than shitty loans and sitting depressed in mountains of debt.

I HAVE university expeperince, been to london to do interior design. THat course was intense, hectic but ALWAYS kept me busy. Here in Notts? Its a holiday in comparison...

I apologise for the bad language but then again no one looks at my blog so who gives a toss.

*Toby says "HELLO!" to himself*

Theres my wrath, all puked up.

Hopefully things will get better, and i DO see a light in this let down environment. I suppose I have never been a high achiever, NEVER have been and never have wanted to be one BUT now i realise that U GOTTA BE THE BEST!!!!!!